Beware....Baby Making

If you don't wanna read about baby making then stop now. OK, so there was....this baby making deal today and tonight I see I am ovulating. Other than wanting to shoot myself I am wondering when I can test. I have NO idea when my LMP was, I am soooo irregular, and want to know when I can test. I guess two weeks, right? With Sam I tested six days before my next MP was due and it was positive immediately, so I am wondering if I can check that early again. See, we talked about this baby deal before he left and decided against it. Now, if I am pregnant then so be it, but once I ovulate I'm like super fertile, my problem is just ovulating. I'm stressing a little, and it's way premature, but damn it. Now I am gonna be stressed out for weeks. Uch, stupid sex. Can I give that up for Lent? Is it anywhere near Lent time? I need to look into this.

Baby Guy Aidan

So Kim came to visit and I got to see the newbie. I am putting his pics here and not on Sam's because they are more my news, she's still too little to really care about who she meets. She could meet the Pope and care less! Anyway. here is the cutie and all the pics I took that night.

Introducing Aidan Zachary, 10/05/06.

Samantha and Aidan.

David and Aidan. Watch out Kim, he wants a little boy.

Me & the little man. He's so cute!

And, of course, Jade & Lucas. Lordy they are getting so big.

Well that just sucks.

I switched both blogs over to the new Blogger. (For those of you who don't use it you will have no idea what I am talking about, but you can now "search" through my labels I put on things and read my entries by topic.) Well, wouldn't you know now that it's by e-mail address all of my blogs (well, both) have the same profile and name at the bottom. So, now if you look at my profile you see what would be Sam's, and I am not gonna change that one. Also, my blog is now signed with Samantha's name. Uch, technology upgrades aren't always "upgrades".

Those Big Fanciful Dreams

I am not one that is big on dreams and their meaning and sharing them, but I had a dream that scared the beejezus out of me and I want to share it. Ok, you can't laugh, because some of it is weird, or funny as David laughed at me.

So I was in a hospital on like the 50th floor and has this huge pane window on my left side. All of a sudden there was this fighter jet hovering (I don't know how it just did) right outside my window. I freaked out because I thought it was going to shoot me and so I hid behind my bed and told David to close my blinds. It took off and I got back into bed only for it to reappear. Next thing I knew there was this green stuff being shot at the plane from above the hospital. I knew, without seeing the craft, that it was coming from an alien spaceship. (It was shooting green stuff like in Independence Day)The fighter jet took off and an all out war started.

Next thing I knew we were in a car with Sam and Jade headed toward our house in St Charles (?). We were speeding away from the city and you could see it in the background with the large spaceship over downtown St Louis and we were going across the bridge. We pulled off and I was panicking because we needed diapers and wipes and formula if we were going to run away and we didn't have any money. We stopped at this one store and spent out last bit of money on some supplies, details unknown. I was asking the woman there if she knew what was going on as she had a television that was on, but was now all snow. She said yes, they were coming and we would all die. "We've been here a long time you know," she said, "It's in the water." I freaked out because she had just given Jade a dixie cup with water so I threw it out of her hands and we began to run, David holding Sam and our car had now disappeared.

We eventually made it home and I ran to the computer to see if I could find any news online. When I punched up MSN news there was a picture of Sam's ultrasound (there was one where her mouth was open and her thumb was going toward the mouth, very creepy looking.) She was moving her thumb back and forth and over the picture was this sound that I of course understood to be the alien language and it was saying, "We started it all in the womb." I screamed and screamed and was trying to tell David as he walked through the door that Samantha was an alien and was going to kill us. It was one of those horrible anguish filled screams because I instantly knew we had to get rid of Sam to survive but she was my baby.

I woke up at this point freaking out and shaking. I don't know why it scared me so bad but it did. A few days later I was thinking about it and I realized why I felt so....desperate, so scared, and so hurt when I realized Sam was an alien. Our children are the only ones that can really hurt us. We put so much into them, our heart and souls, and so much time and effort into making them the best we hope to make them. Anyway, this is my bad dream, creepy or not to you, and it scared the hell out of me.

Night and Day

Looking at my blog I realized the last few things on there were not so positive things about my husband, and then today I am talking about him and not threatening death. Well, yes, he is here. And alive. For now anyway, I do threaten death nearly everyday to him. So, his explanation...He was having trouble with my mom dying too. Hell of a way to show it. Whatever, I'm done with it for now, sort of. Oh yeah, for all of you in Missouri, don't forget to vote next Tuesday.

YES ON AMENDMENT TWO!!!!