Ouch

Ok, so my kid thinks she's made of steel. Or something similar. She decided today to spurt blood from a hole in the back of her head. Well, let me back up. We were playing (near the entertainment center, bad bad mommy) and she went backwards. After she bumped her butt I was relieved because it wasn't straight back. Then she continued backwards. And back, and back, and in to the corner of the shelf. Oh yeah. We knew right away there would be screaming so David picked her up to head off the major screaming fit coming. All of a sudden he jumps up and says "She's bleeding!"My heart stopped. I was trying to figure out what he meant. Like, a trickle or a gush....oh my g-d, how much. Then he yelled at me to get a washcloth. As I threw it at him I saw his hand and her chest covered in blood. I flipped out and froze all at once. My mind was moving so fast and my body refused to go anywhere. Then I was moving and searching for a phone. I was screaming for a phone, I couldn't find one. I was going in circles. Finally I found one and called for an ambulance. There was so much blood.

I went out looking for them because they can never find our apartment. When we got inside they were sitting on the couch, Sam on his lap with the washcloth on her head. They looked at her and said she looked to be ok. It wasn't going to need anything and that unfortunately head wounds bleed like crazy. In that case, CAN SOMEONE PUT THAT IN THE PARENT MANUAL SO WE DON'T FREAK OUT!?!?!? There really was a lot of blood, and she seemed ok and after a nap ok'd by the doc she was up and about. She definitely has a headache, and is a little calmer now. But, nothing horrible so far (knock on wood). Scared the crap out of me. Cried for awhile, really freaked me out.

It's About Time....

I needed to get that awful blog off as the first thing you see. So, as baby news is the only news in my world lately, Sam is getting big. Pulling up on things and stepping with fingers in hand and all. Man, time has gone by so fast, already 7 months. Semester at school is coming to an end so of course all the insanity that goes with that is running around. David got into the police academy so he is going off to be an important cop type thing at the end of the month. Lots going on here I guess. Tired. Good night.

Has it really been 6 weeks?

Wow. I guess when you don't sleep or eat or feel human time flies. I thought it was only supposed to do that when you are having fun. Or am I having fun? Not in the conventional sense that's for sure. Now, while I will continue to write about my life here, which really will be all baby stuff anyway at this point, Sam has her own place. http://samanthalorelei.blogspot.com pictures and such. both of them won't be updated so regularly now that life is busy and sleep is precious but I thought id let everyone know where her pictures are for now.

I have been hit by a truck

Who says pregnant women glow? And why are we supposed to be happy all the time? If anyone has been pregnant they should know not to perpetrate this rumor. Or is it a ploy to make others suffer the same fate? And why is there no handbook or guide to pregnancy? SO many people have done it you would think they could manage a warning of some kind. Yeah there is the What To Expect books but they make it sound so pleasant, liars. Nowhere does it say the last month you will feel like you have been hit by a truck, or small train perhaps. Nowhere does it tell the horror stories of hemroids, numb itchy bellies, swollen burning hands, and severe back spasams. Evil people want you to think it's fun and you will glow. Glisten maybe from carrying 30 extra pounds, but not glow.

So the magical Dr Vlastos, or Mikee as David calls him, snipped the 'fishing line' holding her in. (Ok, and why do men have to decide the time to chat about fishing line and it's resemblance to the sutures is while there is a speculum jammed in my...and a pair of long scissors inserted to remove said suture?!?) I was hoping she'd slide right out. So much for that idea. I actually did dialate to 2cm by Wednesday and I was very excited hoping there was more dialation to come. No such luck. Dr Whalen, lovingly dubbed Tommy by the husband, said I was staedy at 2cm a nd not likely to move. Scar tissue is holding strong and I am in the midst of a Catch 22. To further move my scarred cervix I need to have some serious contractions, such as those in active labor. To get these contractions I need to be in active labor, about 4cm dialated. I'm screwed. She's never coming out now. He said my water will have to break. Yeah...

Now I am on a mission to get my water to break. I have had all the suggestions from sex to walking and what foods to eat, yadayada. But if you hadn't had sex in nearly 5 months walking would sound good to you too, and much less painful even with the horrible back spasams. So April 12th-ish he said he will break my water, a whopping week early, if it h asn't done so already. He is convinced it will break in the next week. He was also convinced I wouldn't stay pregnant until February and then that as soon as the cerclage came out so would baby. So don't put any money on anything quite yet.

Anyway, as you can tell I am irritated and quite crabby 24/7 now. I am uncomfortable, I can't sleep, and I am done being pregnant. I have said that for awhile now but I want her out. Yes I want to see her face and hold her and all that jazz but I really would like my body back now PLEASE. I can't see my feet, really. Or anything below my belly for that matter. It's horrible having to have your husband shave for you. Legs and...all the other stuff. Kills the nerves.

Alright, I am going to attempt to sleep. Wish me luck, I am goin gto need a LOT of it.

5 Months Is A Long Time

A very long time. I am pretty sure that everyone that reads this knows what is going on with me though. I am home now, Feb 22 actually. Been hanging out and not really staying in bed like I am supposed to but at this point if she is coming then so be it. We finally have everything! Crib, bassinet, changing table, high chair, bouncy seat, car seat, stroller, sling, diaper bag (huge point of contention with hubby man), clothes, diapers, wipes, socks, hats, bottles, oh my good lord babies require a lot of stuff. It was expensive stocking up, and yes I know it will continue to be expensive, but now that all the big stuff is done I feel a lot more ok about all of this.

Jade is excited. She was here while we put the crib together and I think she may have realized she really was going to have to share her room and her space as her room shrunk considerably after it was in one piece. Thank goodness we will all fit in here ok though. We were afraid we weren't going to be able to get a 2 bedroom, that would have been a very interesting problem. But there is lots of space, well for people not for all of our junk.

Ok, so last time I had an ultrasound....March 1, she was 5 lbs 4 oz. I go every week for monitoring and then another day every week to see my doctor. March 21 is the magic date for snipping. 2pm the stitch comes out and we see what happens. My OB is convinced she'll be here in a day or two and the perinatologist isn't so sure. I just want to see her pretty little face, and find out who it is that has had their gigantor toes lodged in my ribs the last week or so. She moons everyone a lot. Because of the bicorniate uterus (2 pieces and she only gets one) she's in like half a uterus making it very cramped very early. So, as she is head down, toes in the ribs, and facing in her butt sticks out. When she moves or stretches or anything this little bump pokes out of my belly and it is definately a butt. It was funny because I was reading something about mommies to be and it asks if you are playing name that bump with your husband yet. I laughed because we don't really have to guess since she can't move around a lot it has to be her butt. And I can push and push all day long to try and move her when it hurts and she digs in her toes more and pushes the butt out further...brat.

Ok so I have a paper I have to write. Hopefully I can do this again before she gets here. As soon as I get pics of me pregnant off t he camera and on the comp I'll post some, I just look fat not pregnant but oh well.

Quick Update

So, I am considering making a whole different web site for baby news because there are people who want easy access but i don't want them reading all this stuff. Don't know yet. Oh, and Ginger has hip problems, just what I need. Dumb woofer, if she had just not jumped all those fences and ran away so many times they might be less worn out.

Baby news. (after reviewing last few posts i realized i eluded to baby's secx but did not tell. ITS A GIRL. Or atleast we hope so since thats what they saw) She's a movin and a shakin. Dr couldn't find a heartbeat at this last visit (11/8/05) and i thought mine ahd stopped too. Upon further looksies through ultrasound we found she is just hanging out in the back and there is massive placenta and such between her and the belly, and she was squirming and rolling around in the ultrasound. Which, thankfully, may explain some of the back pain. Instead of kicking my belly and ribs it's just the spine. Hopefully she'll move up in the world and stop hanging back there. I have gained a whopping 4.5 inches on the belly but have yet to gain massive weight, only 3 pounds total. She's sucking the fat out of me and geting large though, still too big for her age.

Oh Dr put me on Zoloft. I am very close to killing my husband so he thought it best. Yes I know the side effects yadayada so dont preach at me(kim). Im not stupid and nieve and believe all the dr says but id rather have my sanity and marriage safe and deal with a crabby baby in the long run than give birth in prison. much better option as i see it. anyway, thats all for now, oh and i registered at babys r us, went a little crazy and lots of big stuff for family members to buy so dont look at that crap. Unless of course this is my brother in which case buy away. Talk to everyone soon.

Am I done yet?

So apparently I have been lazy in my writing, and i appologize. Between goin gback to work and agonizing over this pregnancy I have been a little bit preoccupied. BUT, all is well, so far. Second trimester so I have less to worry about but my doctor is determined to make me worry. I go in on the 26th for a follow up super ultrasound (not the one done in his office, the one at the perinatal lab)to make sure all is well after our scare. I am pretty sure everyone knows about that one...if not let me know and I will inform. I am trying to figure out how to get my other ultrasound pics up but they don't scan well, too dark. Oh, any even though it's a little early we MAY (stressing the may) be able to tell the sex next wednesday.

Anything else interesting? Not really, boring life stuff. Just trying to get through every day and make it to 40 weeks, 26 more to go.

Baby Sounds Will Soon Fill My House

I'm so excited. My first dr visit is today so I'll fill in the details tomorrrow. Just so excited. April 19, 2006 (that sounds so far away but it'll be here so soon) we will have a new baby!!

Really.....

pitter patter? Kim you need to call me!!!!